Shantae's Fund

Hello

<> Just a little about me!
I was born intersexed, which means when my parents first saw me I had both female and male organs.

At a young age my Dad and the doctor decided that I should have my female organs removed and made 100% male.
Needless to say, this was the WRONG way to go! But in less than a year after birth, my parents had sold the house and Dad found a new job in Wasthington state, so he could gain the necessary income to allow for payment of what they viewed as the necessary surgeries and related expenses. I was too young to know the circumstances at the time; all I vaguely remember is what Mom and Dad called "fever dreams". I can somewhat recall the envisionment of going to a big house where a man in a white coat and dark pants took me for my nap, and another man all in black (or dark colored clothes) took me into another room so they and my parents could talk; at least this is what I had been told all my days growing up. Mom and Dad claimed that these "dreams" were from being very sick, as they said I had contracted an upper respiratory infection, never admitting what procedures they had performed on me. So one can see why I was both in shock and partial closure regarding my true gender identity suspicians later in life upon discovering documentation (when my medical records were finally released to me) that not only had I allegedly been treated for an upper respiratory infection, but contained within were 2 individual mentionings that I was born a girl! One of these was crossed out and "boy" written in, another having "boy" entered at the top of a page and "female child" in the middle. Well!!!!!
At least now I know why I never did feel like a guy, I NEVER WAS. Most doctors say that if you do gender assignment surgery on intersexed childern complete with male hormones at an early enough age the child will never know the difference if you choose the wrong gender... WRONG!
The latest research indicates that gender identity cannot be changed this way, no matter how hard one tries to bring up a child. It is in the brain at birth. In a recent documentary on the Discovery Channel it was stated that 5 times a day in the U.S. doctors make a potentially incorrect sex reassignment choice within a short time of birth, because they maintain it is necessary to commit to one sex or the other as early as possible, for our culture demands it. I have suffered unbelievably throughout life because of this, but some how doctors just continue to turn a deaf ear to it... They maintain they are right no matter what any one else says, and don't have to deal with the verbal and non verbal cries of frustration and pain of a gagged inner voice for the entirety of a childhood, adolescence and much of adulthood. (Assuming the newborn survives the high suicide rate among transsexuals to make it to that stage.)
This seems wrong to me, they should listen to and closely observe the child as he/she develops, in lieu of asking the parents what sex child they would PREFER in intersexed birth dilemas. Patience is paramount and the child's body language says a lot over time!.
These are the reasons I've taken the steps to become classified a transsexual and live as a woman later in life; this is not an elective decision for me. DOCTORS had already made me into a transsexual at a very young age, I am merely resolving their mistake. Not fair, but then who said life ever was!.
In some ways it's worse than just being a transsexual, the worst part for me was when I was old enough to understand that my mother and father were continually making fun of me even in our own house... years before I ever became a diagnosed transsexual. And I never started on this path until both had passed on, for love of them and what they could financially and mentally handle.


Well enough of that.
The reason for this page is since I'm on Disability and can't work, and Medicare will not pay for my surgery. I'm asking for help to pay for it from any one that can see it in their heart to do so; it is really hard to save any money at all when the only income I have is SSD, at only 631 dollars a month.
Please, if you can help me pay for my surgery I would be very greatful, and you will always be in my prayers for even taking the time to seriously consider it.
Thank you so very, very much for loving another enough to read this.